Losing Faith Due to Death of Parents or Relative
Assalamu Alaykum, My father passed away 3 years this November, it was a very sudden death and i was away!! i only seen him before the janaza prayers. Subhana'allah, I?m finding it hard to let go, i understand that we are all going to die! I?m in state of denial, i block it out, and make believe he is still alive and on holiday. Some times it just hits me whether I?m at home, work, walking down the street. When that happens I cant stop crying, i haven?t been to his grave because I don?t think I can handle it.Alhamadulilah I give sadaqa jariya on his behalf every month, and when I do good deeds I always ask Allah swt to give him some of my reward.Islamicly is it ok for me to block out my fathers death?? How does one cope with the death of a loved one??? is there a dua for parents in this situation?You would think since my father?s death I would be more religious, but I haven?t, subhana?allah I?ve stop praying, the fear of Allah swt has gone. I feel numb. What can I do to strengthen my iman????Jazaka?allah khair