Making an Oath That Is Later Regretted and broken
MAKING AN OATH THAT IS LATER REGRETTEDassalamu Alaikum wa Rahmatulah. A few years back I had relationship with a muslim man without being married. We used to call each other husband and wife in our own privacy, and he had convinced me that in Islam we were married because the angels had witnessed us calling each other husband and wife. << He also made me swear by Allah that in the Hereafter I would ask Allah that he is in Jannah with me as my husband, even if I were to get married to someone else later in life. >> Then Allah guided me to realise that that man, even though the son of an imam, was a hypocrite, so I expelled him from my life. Allah also guided me to realise that, even if that man had been of perfect character, I had still committed a grevious sin. So I repented bitterly, and spent 2 years away from illegal liaisons, wearing hijab, asking for forgiveness, and developing my Islam. When I felt my heart somehow lighter from the burden of my past, I sought to get married, and Allah showed me His great Mercy by leading me to a wonderful brother. I have now been married for three years, but that oath still troubles me. I love my husband and I want him to be in Jannah with me insha Allah. It is certainly not my intention to ask Allah to be that other man's wife in Jannah. What are your views on the issue, and is there anything I can do to compensate for an oath now regretted? Thanking you in advance.