Wishing for Death due to Suffering
Assalamu AlaikkumI always pray for dignity in life and lead a life without being a burden to loved ones. And I extend this prayer for all my immediate family members as well. Implicitly, it could mean praying for peaceful and quicker death if ever I or loved ones are bed-ridden or inflicted with incurable and painful diseases. When I pray, that is exactly what I have in mind. Is it sinful to pray like that?My wife is suffering from an incurable and disabling disease for the last several years and she is almost bed-ridden now. She needs help for very basic things. There is no hope on her recovery unless Allah bless her with a miracle. The level of suffering will only increase as time goes. So, these days, I tend to pray that, if Allah doesn't want to cure her (He knows best), please bless her with a quick and peaceful end before she suffers long years in the bed. I am afraid, such thoughts or prayers will bring more wrath from Allah. I read that Allah will not burden His slaves with distress more than they can stand. Please help me with your advice.