Depression and Finding Oneself
Assalamu alaikum.I am very confused actually I feel lost like I dont know who I am and where I am going. I am a born muslim yet i have no muslim friends i feel they dont understand me very well like my non muslim friends do. I feel i am achieving nothing in life... I want to make something out of my life go far with my career as well as find the a life partner.. i feel like nothing is going for me. this actually make me very depressed. I dont live a very islamic lifestyle i party a lot, drink and smoke weed. I know as a muslim this is wrong then i go back trying to lead a more islamic life but it does not last very long... i go back to my old ways.. this happends all the time.. i am torn between two worlds one where i really want to please Allah and the other ha ving a good time partying etc.... this makes me feel lost and the guilt eats me up inside.... i am not sure if this makes sense but i need help or guidance.Thanks Siraaj
